BBBC #2 – A Change.

I wanted to challenge myself further with the BBBC, by not using the example questions, and figuring out my own topics to talk about. Today is an exception, I guess. Things RL are a little hectic, and even SL, I have a long list of to-do’s that is threatening to shank me if I don’t give in to it’s demands. I’m going to answer yesterday’s question however, because technically, I already listed my good things yesterday :3 I’ll do tomorrows question properly XD

Why did you become a blogger? How has it enriched your life?

It’s hard to say. I started blogging when I first started creating,  I was managing a really terrible mall, full of people who couldn’t market their way out of a paper bag, and used blogging to try and get some of the more creative vendors some publicity.

I then got a spot blogging for Shopping Cart Disco. They needed someone in a different timezone, and being GMT, and having written posts, I got the gig. I also blogged at a Free Candy For Girls, which is now erased. I blogged with an SL friend, Mari – and we just posted whatever looks we were wearing. I did an expose on Douchelist SL at one point.

I blog because I want to. I don’t take on any pressure to blog, if I can help it, unless I’m pressuring myself to do it, in which case, I’m down with that.

I wouldn’t say it enriches my life, necessarily. It’s just another hobby, really.

I apologise profusely for a post that really doesn’t add up to the content from last night. If I was feeling well enough I am sure I would have put a little more thought into this post.


BBBC #1 – It’s never as bad as you think.

I’m taking part in the Big Bad Blogger Challenge 2010, and this is my first post as part of it. I think I need it, I need that little push to get me enjoying SL again.

Nothing is ever, ever as bad as it seems. There are always good things in your life, the little things that pick you up when you’re down, there is always something.

It might be a friend or loved one, saying one little sentence that reminds you how good your life really is, it might be something like spending time hanging out with a friend, SL or RL – it doesn’t matter. There is always something. Sometimes we forget, we forget about the friends who stand by us, no matter how badly behaved we are, no matter how sad, or frustrated and angry we are. We forget about the family we have, even if they’re less than perfect – at least we can say we have a family.

Family is subjective, it can be anything from a group of friends who look after each other like family do, or it might be a distant Aunt who is always there for you when you need a shoulder to cry on. Whatever family means to you, it is something to be thankful for, some happy thing.

You might have a partner who loves you completely, who you love in return – offering you themselves to you completely, giving you their heart, and trusting you implicitly with it.

I’m admittedly the worst person in the world for forgetting. A combination of being selfish when I am low, having memory problems due to my medication, and being forgetful in general. Not that I excuse myself from it. I’m very aware of how forgetful I am, and sometimes that adds to my low moods sometimes. It takes me a few hours to fall down, and a few seconds to pick myself up again, usually.

I met some of the most amazing friends I have ever had the pleasure of knowing in SL. I am constantly uplifted by them, without them I would not be who I am right now. Myself. For once I have met people who truly understand, people I can communicate with, without fear of upsetting them, without fear of being ostracised for being a little eccentric, or having loud opinions.

The downside to being away from SL for so long, is that I am still very disorientated. I feel very distant from SL sometimes, like some old relationship that fizzled out, with all the awkwardness that goes along with it. I have lost my passion for SL, and I don’t think it’s just the break from it that has done it. I started playing SL because I craved social interaction, I craved an outlet for a very mentally abusive relationship, and I craved release, respite from my illness. I didn’t want to be defined by it any more, I wanted to be myself for once.

I did become myself, except now, I feel like SL only holds odd memories and feelings sometimes. I try and remember the good things from SL I’d done, the friends and such – except most of those memories are marred by my memories of the abuse relationship. Unfortunate, but it’s how it is.

Maybe when I’m doing therapy, maybe when I work my mind out with a professional, it will work out. I can’t wait that long. I need to dig deep and make new happy memories in SL, make new furniture, make new clothes – I need to push myself harder, be more firm with myself. If I want to do it – I should. I came back. I created a new shape, a new me. I created myself in SL. My shape is now exactly in proportion with my RL self. Tall, and hippy, for lack of a better word. My hips end up somewhere under my boobs, which is great sometimes. I’m curvy, and happy about it. The only downside to a shape modelled after myself, is the feet are too small in SL. I can resize shoes most of the time, but I have to make do with tiny, stubby little feet, in proportion with the avatar size, which makes me feel really weird. The face isn’t mind, but I still want a little bit of fantasy in my SL. I just needed a little more me!

I know this has been a long post, so here’s some pretty pictures to ease the pain of having to read a lot of rambling!


I am completely in love with I Love Olive hairs at the moment. They’re full of volume, and they’ve improved so much since I last heard of them. I’ve been chopping and changing between a few of I Love Olives latest releases, and I think I will do a hair post soon, just about them, that’s how much I love them!


I guess my look today is kinda equine in some ways, the leather jodphur style leggings and the Courtisane boots kind of add to that effect, at least. I finished off the outfit with a vest and cardigan from I actually didn’t buy anything in the sale. I couldn’t find anything I like that I didn’t already have! That’s unusual for me.

The skin is Mango Mango, a skin brand I believe is *highly* underblogged, which is odd, seeing as Sileny’s skins are fantastic. She takes part in Humpday Happiness, gives out freebies/dollarbies/cheapies and she is always creating fresher and more beautiful faces. She also does some really awesome unique skins, like doll faces, and even silent movie style skins, with red lips and grey skin . I love how all of her skins make my shape look simply adorable, and the skin texture is flawless!


Hair: Lily (Jet Black) by I Love Olive
Eyes: Diseased Eyes (High Purple) by Edge Grafica (Freebie on XStreet)
Skin: Cocoa (Pale Freckles) by Mango Mango
Vest: Basic Cami (White) by
Cardigan: Long Cardi (Black) by
Leggings: Snap Leather Pants by Bijou
Boots: Marie Lu (Brown) by Courtisane (Freebie)
Poses: #1 (Alesha p2) On the Cover #2 (rainy day) Sunflower Poses

Tiger Tiger

I know that I’m wearing leopard, the words for the title just popped into my head, as most things often do. I’ve been experimenting with shapes lately – and I’ve sort of settled now, though I do often go back to my shorty Dismorph bought shape when I want to be all short and stuff. My av is currently at my RL height, which is 6ft 3, and I’m liking it. This is unusual, only in that normally, I’m super self conscious about height in SL, and RL.

I think it’s rather odd sometimes, that our socially instilled perceptions of physical beauty still hang about in SL, in a world where you can look like whatever you want to, that we still end casting those same aspersions on those outside our comfort zone.

I feel like I should apologise in advance for the quality or lack thereof, of the pictures – until I get my desktop, I’m on a laptop without proper graphics and such, so I’ve done my best with what I have – I hope you still see the awesome items!

Anyway, onto the outfit. It’s nothing special really, just the kind of look I’m really into at the moment, and I built it around these absolutely gorgeous boots from Kookie.

Tiger Tiger - Kookie Closeup

I really love Whippet & Buck, and even just parts of their items work really well in layering, especially the top part of this drop waisted maxi dress.  Add a pair of the amazingly sexy high waisted Jane Jeans from Ingenue and already you’ve got yourself a sexy outfit. To pull it together, I added the svelte AOHARU leopard print fur jacket, another of my favourite items in my ever expanding inventory.

Tiger Tiger - Top Shot

I added a bag, something which I wouldn’t usually do, but I thought that the whole outfit needed something a little extra, so I picked out the beautifully textured Takeout Bag by HOC. HOC are renowned for fabulous quality at cheap prices, and I can’t recommend them more.

Tiger Tiger - HOC Closeup

The hair, a fairly recent Epoque creation is absolutely gorgeous, I love the plaiting that circles the head, and the fringe is just yummy!

Tiger Tiger


Shape – Own
Skin – Tres Blah – Arctic Cold (Brown Brows)
Eyes – Tres Blah – Arctic Eyes
Hair – Epoque – Heirarchy – Dips
Top – Whippet & Buck (Part of the Lismore Drop-waisted Maxi)
Trousers – Ingenue – Jane Jean – Black
Boots – Kookie – Armarda Boots in Dark Choc
Jacket – AOHARU – BT Fur Coat B2 Leopard
Bag – HOC – Takeout Bag – Black
Pose – LAP – KB – Prissy

Lets Talk About – Entitlement.

Things you are entitled to in SL:


Things you are NOT entitled to in SL:

Your account.
To buy things.
To sell things.
To force people to change their opinion.
To recieve free shit if you’re a blogger.
To manners.
To politeness.
To friends.
To lovers.
To your inventory.

The list goes on, and on and on. And on.

Feel free to comment with other things you’re not entitled to in SL. Or anywhere!

All aboard the CRAZY TRAIN

I’d be posting some super awesome images right about now if I was able to, I think I exploded my SLWallet all over the walls of the shoes in Kookie, Vive9 and Lelutka.

Instead of posting some SL images, in some bizarrely REBEL kinda way, I’m gonna just link the hell out of some awesome styles I am in love with, or some Polyvore shizzle. I dunno. We’ll see how it goes. For now, this is just an intro post so the blog isn’t like DEVOID OF POSTS.